Good Feeling

It has been one hell of an amazing October. I haven't been back here for almost 3 weeks so I need to answer to those comments on my previous post. First of all, I AM over him but it's the uncertainty of the situation that broke my heart because I was never given a satisfactory explanation for the break up. I never got any closure from him and I somehow have to come up with them myself to close my mind on that matter. After 3 months, I know I will never turn back because  I recall the time when I was in that grey area for ONE day and that drove me crazy. I felt a sense of relief when I had the clean-cut break up decision. I knew what to do next. Get over him. And that I did.

Now, back to my october..I always hated those 'bye September, hello October, be good to me' and all those kinda stuff. Sorry, no offence to my readers that do that. To me, I'm just befuddled to think why of all things you thank the month. But I get it, it's not the month that made you happy it's things happening in that month. So what's up with my October.

My mum came and I took her out to dinner. A stroll down to the Viaduct and an exquisite dinner by the waterfront is a great moment. I had all this things I want to do and take her to but somehow I just feel a barrier stopping me. I can blame it on the assignment I was working on that was due that week but I know something could have been done but I let it slid.. A word of advice: really, don't let go of opportunities especially with those that you rarely can meet. I won't be able to do it but if you can, good on you!

Only other thing I can recall is the great birthday BBQ and watching the All Blacks take the cup that every Kiwi had their eyes on. I wouldn't say I'm kiwi and all because I'm a MALAYSIAN yo but it was truly very touching to see everyone rejoicing at their feet when the 80.30 minute whistle went off. I couldn't believe I had tears streaming from my eyes but you know me and emotions. No surprise there. No exaggeration as well.

So, now I have my exam week and I somehow have time to blog? Because this is called escapism. Worse than procrastination I must say. But I had this lightweight feeling over me for my Social Psych paper on thursday. I wouldn't say I studied exceptionally hard but I think performing consistently throughout the semester made me feel more secure. I'm only at a B average for my grades before finals but all is good, I do not place much expectation on being an A+ student. Knowing that I improved in my essay writing skills is something I'm happy with. The HR Report I wrote in 5 hours got me a B+. Not too shabby I would say. That's my constant grade for essays anyway. But next semester, I'll bring it up a notch to B+/A- teehee.

Btw, I am looking for a summer job. If you feel like helping a poor student that can't afford her flight back home, pm me =)

Have a good remaining of the year. It's already November and before long, you're gonna be one year older and one year less to achieve your dreams. Grab it!