Girls just wanna be loved

At the end of the day, a girl just wants to be loved. Some won't mind that their partner makes less than them or is a stay-at-home dad. I simply can't accept that because I still prefer my partner to be bringing in more than me and are smarter than me. Before you go thinking where did feminist angie go, let me explain my concept of gender equality.

To me, cruel mockings and discriminations against women is a big NO to me. I can't accept a men and women equally good at a job have a big salary gap. You do not judge a person by their gender. Most men are egoistic and sexist but I will not judge a man at first glance and say that he can't multi-task or whatever. To me, those are learned skills. I always get offended when they say women can't drive. I'm AWESOME. Just don't judge a person's ability by their gender.

Back to my personal preference for my partner being the breadwinner.. I have a few reasons to that. Men are people with gentle self-esteem, if they feel that they make less than their woman, they'll lose their voice and I don't want a squeeky mouse at the corner. I want a man that can stand up to me but not in a condescending way but in a way that when he talks, I will listen.

My first ex couldn't even drive the thought of being a housewife into my head. My second ex made me think how blissful it is to be his housewife but also his partner-in-business. That works for me but as for now, I'm back to the good ol' career-climber. Every step of my way now is to make my path to being the Head of HR Department in a MNC a little easier. I have the same dream but not the same drive anymore... Maybe I've grown? Or maybe I realised being a homemaker is not too bad if your partner respect and loves you all the same.

And maybe as you grow older, it became easier to move on from a relationship. When you finally wrap your head around the reality, you know that those feelings that you've never felt..although it may be different with someone else, it doesn't make the next relationship any much less precious. My first week was all crying and self-blame. My second week is I want to get into a new relationship to distract myself. But by now (2nd week not yet finish) it's I want to be my old self with those tweaks that changed me for the better. No compromise.